everyone at my house has been eating junk every single fucking day and i have been having to eat with them and it’s so fucking hard to try and lose weight when you have mcdonalds at least once a day. FUCKKKKKKKKKKK. i’m not eating their shit anymore. they can destroy their insides as much as they like. i’m doing a cleanse every morning and night to get that shit out of my body.

30375) One of my friends got very sick and had to be hospitalized. She told me that she had lost weight because she was so sick. I was jealous. I want to get sick just to lose weight

So many disordered thoughts but I’m not even skinny so none of it matters. I spend every moment of the day thinking about food and calories. I even dream about them. But I’m still fat. I’m always fat. I’m so obsessed with being skinny and I have nothing to show for it.

i really want to do the salt water flush but i can’t freaking swallow the salt water! it’s like my body refuses to do it. gahh.